tuluum's Diaryland Diary
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STAND MY GROUND
Interpretation:
(Subconscious: Justice)
Wow! MAJOR ARCANA DAY.
I didn't think that today's phone call would lead to such an empowering reading. It certainly was a step that I never thought I would make...
I have been forced to confide some things to a person that I have not confided in before. I was really scared what she would think of me. But it was for naught. She was really kind and accommodating and shared some things with me about herself as well. She also didn't force me to take part today or tomorrow. I really appreciated that.
Today has been about letting go of my barriers and stifling boundaries. I've seen this through as far as I can without losing focus on my main goals and plans. I received a call a short while ago that lets me know that everything I've worked for has come to fruition. And that is reward/glory enough. I can retreat now. Walk away.
I have been sitting down and thinking. Among these crumbled ruins of what i believed and thought. (and yet the Tower has not appeared once.. so it is really my perception that is skewed). I have been thinking. Who is going to be there for me when push comes to shove? It's not a big number. More than I can count on one hand though, so it is quite adequate. But out of those names, not one reliably resides on the list of some of the things that I have been expending energy on. So I have to let go..
echo "mental process";
Fragmentation. Loss of focus. Failure
Cohesion. Focus. Success
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I used to be at a crossroads.
I don't think I am anymore.
I've taken a road. Chosen a path.
Today I grit my teeth and walked down it.
Looking back now would just be counterproductive.
I had a dream last night that related to this in some way. In my gut I understood it as it was happening. Now, it makes no sense.
It involved Carlos, Anson and Eminem. There were starving decomposing Africans and genetically modified tomatoes, as well as diseased tomatoes. From writing my dreams down I'm realizing that Africans, Tomatoes and Eminem are becoming recurring elements. I think I understand what's going on here, but if I try to express it consciously I lose the understanding, so I won't.
Christina Aguilera looks SOOO much better now with all that poundage she's lugging around now :D She is WOMAN
Did you know I hate clowns?
I hate clowns.
I added 20 new designs to my Arcana Art store this weekend. Go check em out!
please? thanks! :D
I need to rest now. Ciao!
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Current Clix Ranking: 30 | Previous Clix Ranking: 28
7:48 p.m. - Sunday, Mar. 16, 2003
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