tuluum's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Shavua Tov Interpretation: (Subconscious: Four Of Swords) What financial risk do I need to take? I'm thinking this has to do with my decision on whether or not to stay with elance. I will make my decision this week. I just got back from a community meeting. It was wonderful :) Much matzos and such. Would of been good to have had a seder. Maybe next year. I have to plan Israel's birthday and Lag B'Omer celebrations next. I will do that this weekend I guess. I have other things to think about today. I gave out tons o cards as well. Can't hurt right!? Earlier today I felt like a loser. I was drained and just felt pathetic. I am so inwardly competitive, and I hate to see others doing things better than me when I know I am as, if not more, capable than they are. That sucks. Anyway I am hoping that that changes soon... Everyone has their own path and destiny and I have to be all 'om' and such about these things. But it does rile my goat a bit. (What does it mean to rile a goat?) I'm doing all I can. What do I want? How do I get there? Whose help do I need? I will contact ADV this week as well, so that I can start recruiting people on my side as well. Spreading the word. I need to get the costs and dates for that to happen. So much to digest and sort out for that to happen. OK. I am totally bummed that I failed Jonathan's friendship test thingy :((( I should make one of my own, shouldn't I? BTW, I get confused by these shrine things that American's make at like crime scenes and dead people homes. Are the family supposed to read the cards and take the flowers and toys from the scene? What if it rains? What if the family wants to be left alone or doesn't want the scene to be so garish? Personally I think the highest tribute that mourners (in the loosest sense that they are) can pay the dead is to honour the living. Send the flowers to a retirement home, the teddy bears to an orphanage, and the candles.. (?) Well I dunno about the candles I guess those can stay. It just seems weird, and like if you try to walk away with some of those toys people would think you were horrid. But I think its more horrid to have perfectly good toys gathering rain and pollution. Oh well! **************************************************************************** Current Clix Ranking: 24 | Previous Clix Ranking: 18 7:19 p.m. - Sunday, Apr. 20, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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