tuluum's Diaryland Diary
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Punk Ass Bitch No Mo'
Me: i'm nervous i have a meeting tomorrow about promotional stuff and photo shoots n stuff
Steve: you'll do great
Me: :)
Me: i came up with some nice ideas/designs for the looks i want (4) ...
Me: i am just so self-hating i am pondering how to look at my photos with detachment.. have to practice that
Steve: :(
Me: :(
Me: also some of those haters.. that i' been removing, i trying not to let them eat at my confidence but they kinda have ...
Me: like what if i'm nothing?
Me: sigh
Steve: yeah
Steve: I try to think of all my friendships as meaningful, even those that have faded.
Me: oh fuck that hahahah those ghetto rats can scurry for all i care
Me: dead weight
Steve: so what's the problem?
Me: well they may be ghetto rats, but what if they are ghetto rats with 20/20 vision *paranoia*
Steve: ?
Steve: not following
Me: what if how they see me is what's there..
Me: thats the stuff that wigs at me
Me: ugh
Steve: then you are disrespecting the opinions of those that are still around you
Me: damn right
Me: punk ass bitch *SLAPS SELF*
Steve: :)
Me: :)
Steve: I mean, I consider myself a pretty judicious judge of people I want to spend time with.
Me: it's taken a lot out of me to get to this point, i'm proably just mentally/emotionaly tired too.
Me: point
Me: i think you are too
Steve: So don't diss me like that! I'm smarter than those punk ass bitches!
Me: hahahaha oh you gonna get personal now
Steve: :)
Me: heeeeee
Me: heheh yes you are right
Steve is right though.
Happy that Lynnie Pooh had a fun bday
Happy also to reconnect with April the great :D
I have a lot to be happy about ...
Now let me get back to that right-clicking ...
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4:24 a.m. - Wednesday, Sept. 17, 2003
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